Blind Faith

Like so many others I've believed what was said from the puplit. And never checked it out for myself. This can and often lead to many questions that I had to find answers for myself. Even if doing so would lead to things that could cause trouble for what I was told was right. Having heard from a few tecachers at various church say that anyon who's Cathalic are not ture Bible believing Christians. That they worship Mary and the saints. The first part of this has never set while with me. While, the last part did seem like there was some truth to it. Yet, I had to go on a quest for truth. In any many froms. It seems that what I have believed by blind faith is far from what the truth is.
Since, I've been reading any information that I could find. All of which seems to be quite postive and I've been drawn to this place. A place that was set-up by Jesus Christ, Himself. That through Peter has kept going. Problems oh yes. Given that the Cathalic Church has fallen people at the helam. At this point I'm on the way to starting R.C.I.A. this fall.
How can I not answer the still small voice calling me home?
No longer can I keep running from the calling or vocation that has been place upon my heart and soul by God. Its time that I stop leaving by blind faith. Rather then, what I have always been told. Making faith my own. For, I have to work out my own salvation with fear and tembling.

Grace

The love of Christ, what an assume and great comfort. That has always given me the grace I needed to make it the day. For, that matter moment to moment. A grace that is been a so many ways caused me to do something more. Much more then what I am currently doing and completely giving over this one life of mine. A life that is not my own but God that Father. The giver of all good things.

Longings

If there has ever been a time of great longing in my life it's now. There has been a great desire in my in this time to become a part of something lagret then my self. Even if this means leaving behind all that is comfortable and what the world say you can not live with out. Even if it is something that kills ture life. A life that is a gift that is thrown away. This is something that I am not willing to do.

Good Friday

Today, as I wind down of a hard night of work. Yes, you read that correctly. I work nights and the morning time I have to wind down. I can't help but think of what happened over two thosand years ago for all of us. On that cross. What a time of great pain and sorrow. How greatful I am for this great gift given to all of us. That has been given to all of us. Yet, so many don't take it. I need to get back to a place where I have community aound me. It's a matter of finding what that community will be.
I have been slowly reading though the CIS lesson one on the Apostles' Creed. There has been so many things I've read that has been helpful. I am finding that the Cathlic Church a place that has more to give then any other. Leaving the non-denimational church is something I never though would happen. Yet, I feel that I need to finsh this couse first. I hope to be done with the lesson by the end of the weekend.

Seaching

What is it to live a life that has no meaning. No way of what it means to live a life fully given over to something. Whatever that might be. I can not understand how I have been making it though this time without going to the Chapel.(chapel.org) This time has been a time of rethinking of what it to be a part of a non-denonational church.
Since I getting my iPod in '06 I have been listening to many podcastes. These podcastes can be found at sqpn.com. The shows I'm subscibed to are the Rosary Army(rosaryarmy.com), the Daily Breakfest, and a few others.
These podcastes have given a face and voice to the Cathlic Church that I didn't have before. So much of what I thought of the Cathlic Church is not true. I have so much that I still do not know about. Which is why I downloaded an rcia podcast. It seems fitting that with the start taking a closer look at this.

New Year New Job

I feel so much better now that 2008 has started. Finally, I'm out of Valley Hi Nursing Home. And on to working at Peapod as a shopper. Though, I'm still trying to get use to working nights and sleeping during the day. This is not easy for me given that I've been a day person all my life. I can deal with this though. With better pay and not having to deal with the having to be fake at Valley Hi. I started Dec. 20. Earlier then I planned on because I could not take another day of working in such a harmful place.
So, hears to a new year (and job)!!!

It Is Time For Change

How great a God I serive and love. The power of prayer is great and powerful movement. There has been a great thing to see results of prayer. Even when it seems to some for somthing that could be seen a petty. Yet, I can't help but feel this is a gift given and must be lifted up to the Almighty and Powerful God. Who is worth of praise. Thank you oh Lord!!
While I'll be tenitively starting January 3, 2008. What a way to start of a new year. I can not help but feel somewhat scared about leaving Valley Hi. A place I've worked at for eight years. I find that there is some amount of fear to doing anything new.