History has been made

Elecation 2008. History has been made. The first black man has been elected to the highest office in the United States of Americia. Barack Obama!! What an amazing thing to witeness history.

Looking at various communities

I have been for the past several month looking at various communities. This I have found is not easy or something to be rushed into. I really don't know where, when, or if I will even become a sister. But, it does feel that I am going in the way directed by God. I only hope that my family contiues to be supportive. As I keep going through R.C.A.I.

Longings and wonderings

Can there be peace when I uneasy about the life I've been living. Uneasy about feeling that I have not done what I should have been going to confession. It feels that there is so much that needs to be forgiven. How can I go to confession when I'm not yet a member of the Catholic Church? I don't know. But, this I do, I am sinking and have lost any footing I had before. How I need to hear that I'm forgiven by a priest. I will ask Father today what is the proper way about going about confession. I haven't found anything that say I should not be going to confession.
I better get back to doing the Knights of Colmbus CIS course. I haven't been doing well about keeping up with this. Along with any sort fo Bible reading. There is so much to be learned from this precious book. I long to get going with the R.C.I.A. program. I really do wont to be a part of the Chruch. I have to partake of the Lord's Table. Which is what I am being called to do at least for know.

Blind Faith

Like so many others I've believed what was said from the puplit. And never checked it out for myself. This can and often lead to many questions that I had to find answers for myself. Even if doing so would lead to things that could cause trouble for what I was told was right. Having heard from a few tecachers at various church say that anyon who's Cathalic are not ture Bible believing Christians. That they worship Mary and the saints. The first part of this has never set while with me. While, the last part did seem like there was some truth to it. Yet, I had to go on a quest for truth. In any many froms. It seems that what I have believed by blind faith is far from what the truth is.
Since, I've been reading any information that I could find. All of which seems to be quite postive and I've been drawn to this place. A place that was set-up by Jesus Christ, Himself. That through Peter has kept going. Problems oh yes. Given that the Cathalic Church has fallen people at the helam. At this point I'm on the way to starting R.C.I.A. this fall.
How can I not answer the still small voice calling me home?
No longer can I keep running from the calling or vocation that has been place upon my heart and soul by God. Its time that I stop leaving by blind faith. Rather then, what I have always been told. Making faith my own. For, I have to work out my own salvation with fear and tembling.

Grace

The love of Christ, what an assume and great comfort. That has always given me the grace I needed to make it the day. For, that matter moment to moment. A grace that is been a so many ways caused me to do something more. Much more then what I am currently doing and completely giving over this one life of mine. A life that is not my own but God that Father. The giver of all good things.

Longings

If there has ever been a time of great longing in my life it's now. There has been a great desire in my in this time to become a part of something lagret then my self. Even if this means leaving behind all that is comfortable and what the world say you can not live with out. Even if it is something that kills ture life. A life that is a gift that is thrown away. This is something that I am not willing to do.

Good Friday

Today, as I wind down of a hard night of work. Yes, you read that correctly. I work nights and the morning time I have to wind down. I can't help but think of what happened over two thosand years ago for all of us. On that cross. What a time of great pain and sorrow. How greatful I am for this great gift given to all of us. That has been given to all of us. Yet, so many don't take it. I need to get back to a place where I have community aound me. It's a matter of finding what that community will be.
I have been slowly reading though the CIS lesson one on the Apostles' Creed. There has been so many things I've read that has been helpful. I am finding that the Cathlic Church a place that has more to give then any other. Leaving the non-denimational church is something I never though would happen. Yet, I feel that I need to finsh this couse first. I hope to be done with the lesson by the end of the weekend.

Seaching

What is it to live a life that has no meaning. No way of what it means to live a life fully given over to something. Whatever that might be. I can not understand how I have been making it though this time without going to the Chapel.(chapel.org) This time has been a time of rethinking of what it to be a part of a non-denonational church.
Since I getting my iPod in '06 I have been listening to many podcastes. These podcastes can be found at sqpn.com. The shows I'm subscibed to are the Rosary Army(rosaryarmy.com), the Daily Breakfest, and a few others.
These podcastes have given a face and voice to the Cathlic Church that I didn't have before. So much of what I thought of the Cathlic Church is not true. I have so much that I still do not know about. Which is why I downloaded an rcia podcast. It seems fitting that with the start taking a closer look at this.

New Year New Job

I feel so much better now that 2008 has started. Finally, I'm out of Valley Hi Nursing Home. And on to working at Peapod as a shopper. Though, I'm still trying to get use to working nights and sleeping during the day. This is not easy for me given that I've been a day person all my life. I can deal with this though. With better pay and not having to deal with the having to be fake at Valley Hi. I started Dec. 20. Earlier then I planned on because I could not take another day of working in such a harmful place.
So, hears to a new year (and job)!!!